thank you

thank you for understand how much pressure i am under lets list it out :
1.PEER PRESSURE
2.EXAM PRESSURE
3.RELATIONSHIP PRESSURE
4.FRIENDS PRESSURE
5.STRESS UP
SO FUCKED UP!
but thank you for being in my shoes and understand what i am going thru and standing by me
=)
today u skip school to see me we went for lunch at GINGER at CENTRAL MARKET
it was freaking awesome the food is so nice!!!! OMG haha then we hang out at central market
i capture some pictures!!!
cute plate!!!! from GINGER shop so cute rite haha fishy plate!!!



we went to SNJ and i took a picture of u n a PIG!!! haha just to compare and see how much u look like the pig ahahha


pictures of meeeee ;D
be ORIGINAL wipe off that make up on ur face be urself!


AWWW cute DOLLY!!! from S&J !!

Yelling out loud

this phrase "GOT GF/BF NO MORE BFF's"
is it TRUE OR FALSE?
sometimes i just feel like i am sick and tired of fitting in the crowd i just feel like yelling "I AM SICK AND TIRED OF YOU AND I JUST WANT EVERYTHING TO BE LIKE LAST TIME"
what happen to me?! why did i even treat my Best Friend like this? why did i treat Hsian loong like this if i am in his shoes i wouldn't know how sad it feels to be left out and i wouldn't do that to him i am just a selfish bastard! i didn't appreciate our friendship and i didn't have the time to keep in touch with HL and JY
those 3 best friends last time now all so torn up and broken by DISTANCE...
i just feel like crying just thinking about it...
thinking about what i have done?!
i just miss you guys so much... ... and it just hurts so much thinking about the memories we 3 have been thru and its a shame that we hardly keep in touch after we have our own life's ...
i just... ... ...sighs feel tired of fitting in the crowd people tend to forget me once in a while people tend to think i am invisible ... and i just hate it
i just wish i can turn back time back to the old days when we 3 were together form2 having so much fun not giving a damn about others its just a million times better than now...
i thought i am happier than before yes hell yes i am happier after joining the cheer team having a great boyfriend and having a new clique but then i think about it again... those are just something u can be happy for like what a few hours and then u think back the PEAK TIME WHEN YOU ARE HAPPY is not all these! its the time when i hang out with my BEST FRIENDS FOREVER! those are the happiest time and i just feel so torn up now.....

I AM SORRY CAUSE NOW I KNOW HOW U FEEL CAUSE NOW I AM IN YOUR SHOES FEELING HOW U FEEL BACK THEN

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How i wish every moment with you last =)

thank you sweetie i really love the video you made for me for our 4 months anniversary its really nice although the pictures are blur but it means a lot to me knowing that when i fall down there will always be someone there helping me stand up and walk through this life without loneliness and fear =)being with you really changed my life a lot and i love you baby

i am a blur and well kinda slow girl but when i met you i became happier and i just love every moment spent with you =)
Promise me you will hold my hand forever <3 <3 and hug me tight don't let go



The End ILOVEYOUBABY
U MAKE ME SMILE LIKE I NEVER SMILE BEFORE
although we been thru enough SHIT AND CHAOS but i still want u to know i will always be by your side baby =)

S.O.X 1May2010 at Taylor's College

1May2010 the S.o.X drum line and cheer comp is held at Taylor's College
obviously i went thr!!!!
WEEEE it was freaginee awesomeeee love the performance it was great everyone gave their 101% ALL OUT =)
great job PIRATES
it was a blast the crowd went WILD!
OH MAHH GAWDDSSS I LOVE YOU PIRATES!!!! haha


after the comp i went to pavilion with my friends and bf =) we plan to watch movie and have lunch.
we ate at WONG KOK then we go to the cinema oh mah GOD the whole cinema was PACKED with people dying to watch IRON MAN 2 ! we line up for almost an hour to get tickets.we didn't get to watch WHEN IN ROME and the others were almost fully booked so we went and watch CYCLE OF LOVE it was a normal boring suddenly weird and sad movie! my advise if u don't have a packet of tissue in ur hand don't go in and watch its really sad and stupid .
after that we went to LOW YAT japanese restaurant to eat yummyy ZanMai sushi dont know how to spell the name but its really niceeee!!!
then me n my family went to sing k !!! it was awesome we were all jumping around dancing and drinking haha i drank 2 bottle of beer and after that i can't walk straight and i feel like i am going to fall down on my face lols! =D it was awesome party til 2a.m in the morning! then went home drop dead and sleep!!! WEEE
AWESOME LAST DAY OUT
and how i wish this day last forever cause i can't see u for a long time buuhuuuuhuuu sad =(

friday night another crazy PARTEHH!!!

Friday night 16April
it was consider a sad day cause of what happen on thursday n i went to school i talk to her bout it and i was ok with her cause that is not call BACKSTABBING!
and everyone else AGREED too and i was ok with her as usual back to normal.
but one problem... i argued with my boyfiee and i amd sad n mad at him for talking to me like that and hurting my feelings but the worst thing is that he is mad at me and he don't want to talk to me i think
i was thinking the whole day what to do and what is going to happen next.
i was really sick and tired and i have cheer practice i didn't even have time to eat lunch then i went for cheer practice.it was the only time i release all my stress out dancing and i had fun...

for a min i forget about the problems then when everything finish i went home i saw 7miss calls from Reek and messages and i just replied him then i look at joie's msg only i remember SNAP!!! Daphne's party is today i quickly called up and ask what time it starts and whr is it...
and i went to the party last minute and i talk to reek we both were okay again i told him i never backstab her so he just went like ok with me
i had serious shit FUN!!!!
white wine red wine beer champagne good food awesome place and it was a freaking crazy party!!! love it and i swear it was the first time i drank so much til i feel a lil tipsy! =P haha
but i wasn't drunk just a lil dizzy and sleepy ahahaha
and i feel headache! damnnn so conclusion drinking too much ain't good! once in a while i guess its ok haha ;D

i love you my baby boy!
i love the way u hug me n kiss me ;D

15 April 2010 its suppose to be our 4 months anniversary but...

i cry in the corner after we hung up i just don't know why
my tears just came down and i was hoping that i could stop the tears but i just couldn't ...
i tell myself i am a STRONG GIRL! yeah i am STRONG this stupid thing won't beat me down
but i just couldn't stand it anymore yeah i am a fucking hell stupid person! i know i piss u off cause i don't trust u
but wow i guess i lost in this battle aye... i am the loser and i don't mind taking all the blame i don't care. its just that i quit being strong ...
its just so hard to breath sometime when everyone thinks that you are okay when you are not
and when you want someone to back u up no one does and when u want a shoulder to cry on no one is there...
i don't want to walk this road alone...
i don't even know if you are going to talk to me anymore i ran into the toilet shut the door and i started crying again... this time i think about all the happy times and i even think about the thing i got for you but this all happen and i don't think u will want it... i just feel so sick and tired now...
my heart is bleeding tears are falling down
and i still have to put a smile on my face and say "everything is okay"...
so ok i am prepared pour the blame down and drown me to death after all u all think i deserve it rite =)

bored~

i got so bored so i took pictures with my webcam =D

bleks

weird pose ;D

whatever loser

i smell ur smell and i fell asleep
ADDICTED to ur smell
just hope everyday i get to spend my days with you <3