Hiding

behind every pair of eyes
behind every drop of tears
behind all the make up
behind all the smiles
behind all the laughter
behind all those action
you try to hide from people
the person you love left you , you beg them please don't go and come back but they didn't look around you fake a smile in front of the crowd and act like you don't care but behind close curtains and doors you sat at the corner and ask why and started to cry..
you face a problem and you don't want anyone to know because if they know , they will question you and probably think that you are wrong , you fake a smile on your face and still you runaway from your problems
you are in pain but you don't want anyone to worry about you , you just put a little smile on your face and follow the crowd but the pain in your soul is slowly killing you inside you hide from everyone and slowly die inside bit by bit and part by part you are disappearing


Sometimes you don't realize what you have and you just keep asking for more
and when its gone you feel sad and you regret why you never took care of it properly before... and when everything is too late you just cry and blame yourself...you hit flat on the ground you get yourself hurt
but
there is always sunshine after the rain and pain
you tend to build up the strength in you and you stand back up and fight for what you love and what you want.
So before everything is too late and before you can't rewind back the tapes cherish everything you have and people around you show them that you love them and if you are once that stupid doofus that don't know how to express how you feel , write it on a paper and send it to the person you love before they are gone because you won't want to regret after everything is too late.


-signing out-
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Falling

Crushing down by Crystalbebe

Am I falling or am i dreaming

because i've always been wishing

one day you would look around and wonder

What has gone missing

In this journey i walk alone

i stand on the edge and scream to myself

how and why did i end up like this

wanted some help but no one to tell

maybe i'm just wishing for too much

because i don't realise that it is all too tough

to walk this road again and alone.

-Written by Crystalbebe 12:01pm 27/1/2011-

look into my eyes what do you see?

someone that is funny someone that is strong

someone that you can always talk to

someone that acts like one of your brothers?

someone that is too rude?

someone that talks without thinking?

or someone that truely loves you...

i can't look at you in the eyes don't know why

Keri Hilson -blind

Picked up the phone and hit speed dial
Went straight to your voicemail
Now I'm looking closer to know what I see
Because my man wouldn't be caught dead with nobody else but me
But what gave it all away was your smile
The same one that picked me up
Got me breaking down

-signing out-

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see things my way and you will know how i feel the pain and confussion i just feel like sleeping and running away from it =') can i ? *laughs*

Beauty ♥

What is beauty? How do you define beauty as??
Does beauty means heavy make up

Does it mean having all the Expensive high end fashion makes you more attractive?

What about having all the branded goods you can have in this world to make you look expensive does that make you beautiful?

What about being SKINNY and TALL does that make you more attractive?

To me , i have always thought that being skinny and tall is beauty .
If you were born with a drop dead gorgeous face you are attractive.i am always not happy with the way i look . I look in the mirror , i always feel sad i was always the victim people pick on me bully me call me names call me fat until the extend that i feel so hurt i feel so moody and sad . Those words that came out from peoples mouth are like spades killing you in the heart although they didn't really mean it but to me those word totally killed my self-esteem ...
I always wish that i am taller and i am prettier ...
But today i finally learn that deep down , beauty its actually whats inside your heart your personality ... If you are beautiful but you don't respect others , you are nothing but an ordinary girl but if you have a heart of gold and you love to help others you are more attractive than any pretty girls out there.
Wipe your heavy make up away take off that hair extension of yours take off your high end designer clothes your fake lashes and your contact lenses and look into the mirror again...
Show people what is deep down inside your heart that is beauty.
Beauty is when you open up to someone you really trust and didn't have to pretend to be who you are not. Beauty is that sparks you give others in life
You are beautiful in your own ways and if people try to bring you down just smile and say i love myself cause i am beautiful and if you don't like me being beautiful just walk away.

i'm just saying how i feel and i hope you feel the same way like me =)

-Signing out-
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