Friday, August 27, 2010

Memories

27/8/2010
I read back a long time ago post that i wanted to post on BLOG but i didn't get a chance to then i forgotten about it...
it reminds me the first time someone gave me a chance to audition for the I-Metro Cheer thingy...
it was that one chance that make me fall in love with Cheerleading
teacher the seniors and coach gave me a chance to join...
taught me a lesson .. i was the type of person that will always say "NO before i even try anything as long as i think its hard i won't even think about trying " but they told me one phrase i will remember forever " IN CHEERLEADING THERE IS NO SUCH THING CALL NO!"
from that day onwards , i try my best to cope up with everything and i still remember my jumps back then it was awful i think they minus some of our marks cause of my ugly jump. seriously its freaking embarrassing i feel like hiding ! i still remember i only get like 1 week of training then i have to go for the competition i was really stressed out , scared and i was freaking out cause i hurt my leg muscle ( RESULT OF NOT WARMING UP PROPERLY BEFORE LONG HOUR TRAINING) 3 days before that comp my leg was hurting like nuts i can't even kneel down my muscles hurt like hell ..
i was so worried i ask everyone if i am going to be ok they just went like just rest more and put some ice on it , it will be okay...
and i remember that time i was still with reek and i was still hoping he would come and see me during comp but he didn't oh well! Thank you for giving me the chance to build up this interest and thank you for giving me a chance to really experience what is Cheerleading and the feeling of stepping into the mat.

TOOK SOME PICHA TODAY ;D




Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Avalanch


Nothing in this world can every bring you down
EXCEPT for YOURSELF
life is hard its cruel
you always get unhappy
i get unhappy ...
people call me stupid i told them one thing
I WON'T GET SO LOW MARKS THE NEXT TIME DON'T WORRY
i don't like it when people try to insult me i will just end up standing up and telling them SORREYY i am not the type that would sit back and let you insult me i won't
you try to say HEYY NOTHING IS WRONG
but actually i know how you feel because when i said that no one in this world ever cared about me...
so i wouldn't want you to feel the same way...
i want everyone else to feel like someone is there for them and life is worth all the pain
you can try a million ways to hide and fake a smile but i can always feel it
the way you type the way you speak the way you look at someone or something i can feel it that something is wrong
i remember how i use to stand straight even if something falls on me try not to cry even though i know its pain and i will
trying to tell the world i'm fine when i am not
trying to look at someone that has pass by in your life with a smile and hiding the tears
i know how it feels
you feel like jumping off the building closing your eyes screaming in ur pillow trying to talk to your pet and telling them your problems but they will just eventually walk away and hide because they can't bare to look at you cry and tell them your problems cause they can't help

this is how i feel ...

-signing off-
0 Crystalbebe 0

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

SuperDOG

its 18/8/2010
i was ironing the clothes when i suddenly heard a loud sound like a TEXTBOOK dropping down on the floor and i heard Hazels cry i quickly ran down and she ran under the table and hide.
everyone was shock (everyone that is at downstairs) i ask what happen they say she fell from the second floor on the stairs and ran under the table...
i quickly carry hazel up my hands were shivering and my Aunt went like " MY GOD! SHE FELL DOWN SO LOUD THE NOISE QUICKLY SEND HER TO THE HOSPITAL LATER SHE GOT INTERNAL BLEEDING" as if i was not scared enough she add on"MY FRIENDS DOG ALSO SAME FELL DOWN FROM THE SECOND FLOOR AND LOOK LIKE IT IS OK BUT 3 DAYS LATER IT DIED!" i just went like can you quit making me feel like dying at that point i didn't know what to do i shout at my mom i told her to bring hazel to the hospital immediately i carry hazel up i put some of the medication on her legs hands head backbone stomach i just put the medication oil and i was worry she has broken bones so i took out her favorite biscuit treat and i shake the plastic bottle she looked at me and ran to me i took out one and let her eat she was chasing after the biscuit so i assume she got no broken legs or hands
but we fear of INTERNAL BLEEDING it was raining heavily at it happen about 9 something we rush her to the PET HOSPITAL NEAR LEISURE MALL, Cheras they say that the hospital opens 24hours when we reach thr we press the emergency alarm no one answer i was crying outside of the door i shouted'ANYONE THR PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR PLEASE!!!' my brother dialed the number and finally someone answer the first thing they say was NOW ITS EMERGENCY HOUR SO THEY WILL BE EXTRA PAYMENT NEEDED.my brother just went like MONEY IS NOT A PROBLEM PLEASE CALL THE DOCTOR HERE NOW!i told my mom i don't care how much i need to pay i just want to make sure nothing is wrong with Hazel .finally after banging the gate and pressing the door bell for more than 10min someone came out and let us in
we waited for the doctor to come for about 30min or more than that i was crying i look at hazel she was crying too her face is wet i was so worried sick when the doctor came , he check hazel and said that she got no broken bones but X-ray is needed.
we waited outside the X-ray room for about 10min i was so impatient i went into the X-ray room and they took the hard drive to the computer room at the other room i follow them in. The doctor don't even know how to function that thing and wasted about 20min trying to figure out how to use that damn NEW MACHINE i keep asking the doctor is Hazel going to be alright he said we have to see the X-ray.
then finally he said that he needs to make another X-ray and use the old printer because he don't know how to function the new machine i wait and wait ... so worried i say GOD PLEASE PLEASE NOW I JUST HOPE THAT NOTHING IS WRONG WITH HAZEL I HOPE THAT YOU WILL HELP HER.
finally the X-ray sheets are out and they said thr is nothing wrong but the doctor fear that the bladder might be hurt by the impact of the fall so they need to do an ULTRA-SOUND i was walking in and out of the room and hoping that nothing is wrong i keep asking the doctor if hazel is going to be ok and finally the ultra-sound results are out THR IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOUR DOG DON'T WORRY SHE IS JUST A LITTLE SHOCK MAKE SURE YOU OBSERVE IF SHE PASS MOTION , EAT AND STUFF LIKE THAT . SHE IS OK JUST MAKE SURE SHE GETS LOTS OF REST AND CHECK ON HER IF SHE PEE BLOOD BRING HER BACK TO THE HOSPITAL MAYBE THR IS INFLAMMATION AND WE WILL GIVE HER SOME MEDICATION NOT TO WORRY.
Finally PHEWWWW THANK YOU GOD immediately i carry her back home and i put her to sleep . by the time we all settle down its about 12 something 1 we were so tired but i know that i have to take care of her i set 3 alarms in the middle of the night to wake up and check on her.
bout 5 o clock in the morning she woke up i saw her and i quickly ran towards her . next to here was a newspaper with pee. no blood =) i told my mom and we wake up . she started running around again we played with her for awhile i put her on the bed and she keep biting my hair haha =D i was happy she wasn't in that much pain.but still i put some traditional medication oil on the body in case thr is any pain it will be better. we fed her some biscuits after eating she ran around then she got tired as usual then we put her back to bed. today 19/8/2010 she is ok and running around like a happy Hazel nut!
me and my mom decided to do something about the stairs cause hazel always has a habit of walking at the edge she might have slipped down yesterday and i suggested my mom to screw in some woods so that she can never see the bottom of the stairs and its much safer. and at the handle of the stairs too so she can learn to use the stairs and walk up and down without us worrying she might take a fall again.
from today onwards she will be treated like a baby.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Since you've Been Gone

i don't know but somehow i felt like you were busy with your life that you start to forget about me...
its just like i am an extra trouble for you.

i don't know why but yet i feel so bad...
Cut the sober crap
DATE :21 December 2010 our school is having a
Prom night theme : Hollywood and Fame
Price : RM100 at Melia Hotel , Kuala Lumpur


beside that last friday i went for my best friends sweet 16 birthday BASH at RED BOX LOW YAT
it was fun ;D
here are some crazy posing pictures












I Wore a Black polka dot short top with a high waist Hot pink pants i find it super vintage and it makes short people look like they have long legs ;D
ahahah



Leo Joint Installation 15/8/10



-signing off -

0 Crystalbebe 0

Monday, August 2, 2010

Unstoppable

Long time i never blog ;D
well Unstoppable for what??!!
ok lets see for the pass 2 days i have been going around pavilion from window shopping to NON-STOP shopping!!
i went into most of the shops Topshop Zara MNG Mooks Forever 21 and more i was shopping for new clothes cause everywhere you see this huge ass 70% off SIGN!!!! i just went like OHH YEAHHHHHHHH
but yet still some clothes after discount they still cost like a fortune
after shopping , unfortunately my whole housing area's power supply went OFF!!!
and the lift wasn't working , me and my mom ended up walking the stairs up to 10 floor it was scary some floors didn't have emergency lights i just went like FARKKK please i hope i don't see anything!!!
everything at home was pitch black!
i can't see properly... and it was hot and stuffy i just went like urrgghhh darrrn ok wtv i am going to bed now i didn't really sleep.about 4 something my brother came home and walk into my room and switch on the air-cond i wake up i just went like damn sleepy ok i went back to sleep then about 6 my puppy start barking because she needs to answer the call of nature jeezzz i try ignoring her HILARIOUS BARKING but i couldn't i end up waking up settling everything then go back to sleep i got less than 8 hours of sleep... i felt like dying!!
ok have continue next post i have to run my mom is going to kill me !!!!