Second doubts

You know what couples face today in this cold and cruel world?
Second doubts...What if?
This happens to me... i have been through heartbreaks , been through parts of life where i screw up other peoples happy life... Been there when someone pick me up and sworn they would love me forever but they throw me away after everything is over...

i have been through situations that made me change my personality...
Foolish and naive thinking that he would come back to me when i change myself for him. but nope =) they all walk away without a good reason...
throughout the years of *Hitting my head on the wall* something i use to describe love , i just turn into someone that would be with guys that love me in my mind being loved is always better than loving someone...
but did it make me anywhere near or close to happy?No honestly , i almost lose all my friends...in that point of life , i feel hopeless and i didn't really believe that true love exist anymore... i just take love as a gamble and a game.You win you have it , you lose then you leave.

Until i really saw this specific guy that made me have this weird feeling i have never had for a very long long time..
Its a kind of spark you feel when you look at him... you feel like WOW who is this guy?Who is he and i am dying to know him =) Funny heh yeah that is the way i felt when i first saw him this electroshock feeling...
i have felt it once when i was in form3 but because of my own foolishness i lost it.. then after that i have never ever felt sparks when i see other guys... until i met this one guy in my 16birthday party... he was on the other side of the pool and i immediately spotted him and the first time when i look at him i get this spark again... the kind of feeling , so tempted to go near him and look at him in the eyes...
but he didn't notice me...
as time pass i get to know him better... we were introduced to each other.. well he wasn't just introduced to me but i just find him intriguing.. i text him everyday.
i don't mind admitting that i text him ... because i like him! at a point i felt like giving up because he seemed so uninterested.. and my friend told me that he didn't like me...
i was really sad i couldn't focus in my own life i couldn't move on... i feel so down and sad... i didn't know what to do ..
but then my best friend came to me and say i think he likes you...
and i figure out that so what if he don't like me? Doesn't mean i have to give up right? if you can't get someone out of your mind maybe he is meant to be there...
so i was very sure about my decision i just continued to love him in silence...
and 2 days before his birthday i threw him a surprise party ...and we got together=) that was the happiest day of my life! Seriously i feel blessed having him...

I have to admit that
He is not a very good when it comes to sweet talking
He is not very good at making a girl happy
He is dull
but one thing for sure... he knows how to make me smile , laugh , cry , go insane and just love him like mad! Its like a never ending roller coaster ride!
We've been so high up and we've been so low down , we've been through dirt on our face , said words we never imagine we would say , hurt each others feeling , make each other feel sad...
And i did the biggest mistake was to doubt his love to me...
That stupid fear of losing him caused me to have doubts on him
because of doubting him i have pushed him to the edge...
i'm sorry baby .... i don't know what to say anymore
i love you a lot but sometimes you just can't blame me if i have doubts... because i just don't have self confidence... i look like i have a lot of self confidence but the ugly truth is that i don't have... i am afraid that you will leave me that's why every time i freak out i would want you to reassure me... because of my own problem i have cause you to be unhappy... i'm sorry Jonathan Lai Jen Vin


i hope that i am not a burden to you

how i wish every moment with you would freeze and stop...because time seems to pass so fast when i am with you... i will appreciate you more...knowing that i will only live once in this life and there is only one of you in this world... i will...



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Boxes , Locks , Keys and a whole load of Dirty secrets

Sometimes we are too afraid to speak out , sometimes we just let others over shadow us because we are afraid that when we speak out and raise our voices out no one will back us up , no one will agree with what we are saying...
The Fear of being rejected by the society and by everyone else in our so call Group , we refuse to speak our emotions out we just think that letting it go , not starting up a fight will be better.

We hide things like our feeling towards a boy , things we did that was wrong that made us feel guilt , we are from a broken family and all we ever wanted was a father that will be there for us , we just want a boy to prove to us that he is capable of not leaving us , things we hide like the fact that we are addicted to sex , cigarettes and alcohol , of the fact that we cheated on our partner , the fact that we can't stop eating or we are aneroxic
Everything we fear of , we will try hard to keep it inside a box and we basically just seal it up and throw it into some deep well or deep hole so that no one will ever find out what we did in the past , present or future...Embarrassing moments that you wish no one knew about ...










What drive us to do things like this?Was it our foolishness ?Was it our fear of losing our popularity and fame?Was it because of money?Was it because of love?Was it because the fact that we are just trying to get that thrill...We do something wrong and we regret but is that the right way to face our problems?
No! Stand out...So what if you did everything wrong and nothing right , mistakes are meant to be made! You only get to live once you learn from your mistakes its a good experience with a high price you have to pay but at least you won't repeat the same old mistakes... Do you know that when you hide it and try to run away from it , it comes back and haunt you?Do you have any idea how scary is it?i know how scary it is everywhere you go , you think that people know about it and that sudden fear can kill you and make you go crazy!
So speak out tell your close friend about it... because you have to know one things YOU ARE NOT ALONE NO MATTER IN WHAT SITUATION , THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT FACED AND WENT THRU THE SAME THING LIKE YOU .BE BRAVE TO SPEAK OUT BE BRAVE TO FACE YOUR PROBLEMS AND YOU WILL EVENTUALLY SEE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL =)

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CUBE BOX
-Crystalbebe-

Xoxo i just express things in a different way than others.
Quotes of the day!
"Be Different , People follow other people's path but be the one that creates the path don't be a follower"

Why are we second best?

Why are we second best?
Have you ever think about it?
Have you ever felt like no one wants you and even if they pick you , you are always second and someone else or something comes first place in their heart but that will never be you?
I know how exactly are you feeling now...
You know guys? and RELATIONSHIPS?? Well for the first few months , they will love you alot your love will be very strong but as time goes by , its like a process ... the love will get weakened and both the boy and the girl will start to show their "TRUE SELF"
You know what i mean???This is what girls think:
we can always give up everything in our life just to make him happy , give up all our time , just to see them , we can sacrifice anything just to see that smile and sparkles in their eyes ... we will never feel tired or bored of taking care of them and automatically we will treat them like KINGS...
but what do we get? we will never be the first they want to see , we will never be the FIRST...
They can put their games , their work , their money , their friends first . Its never wrong everyone get to choose who they want to put first place and how they want their world to revolve around.
But its just sometimes girls get so tired of it! Every single time when things are planned out nicely they can always give up and back out last minute and all they can do is say SORRY. That anger and frustation in girls just disappear and they fall into his trap again... Compromising too much , giving but not taking... Tolerating
but what about guys?
Guys will always think that girls are annoying...The first few months they are very caring but later on they feel that girls are clingy , feel that they are not understanding them.

I just want to ask all the guys out there in this world...
Is it that hard to give up some time to accompany your girl?
is it that hard to not let your girl think that YOU CHOOSE YOUR GAMES OVER HER?
do you know how hard is it for a girl to know that you rather choose your game over seeing her?
She is craving for you but you on the other hand think that its normal to give each other MORE SPACE...
do you know that that space you put between you guys can actually kill your love? your love will eventually fade off slowly and die...
Guys you ahould learn how to appreciate all the things girls do for you ..
is it too much to ask for a few hours? is it too much to ask for just one look??

Lil ART Gallery






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Domination of the Kitties

Well when i say domination of the kitties i don't mean CATS!!!!!No doubts they are very adorable, tame and they look super cute with their GOO GOO eyes staring straight into your eyes ... As you tilt your head a bit to the side and go like AWWWWWW Isn't He/She Adorable!!!!!


NO!!!! YOU GOT THE WRONG INFORMATION!!! AND THE WRONG MESSAGE!!! WHEN I SAY DOMINATION OF THE KITTIES I MEANT THIS MILLION DOLLAR BABY!!
Miss Hello Kitty ;) Isn't she one Bling Baby?!this is actually a swaraski studded doll

Hello Kitty is probably the best seller among toddlers and teenagers that are addicted to Adorable-NESS!

Why do i say that Hello Kitty is dominating the World? Well see it for yourself!Everywhere you see Hello Kitty!

People like their wedding cake with hello kitty on it!

Hello Kitty Here Hello Kitty there! Even On Halloweens ;)

Hello kitty watches

Hello Kitty guitar!!! WOW



Hello Kitty shops


hello kitty Flowers and wedding dresses!



Even Paris Hilton and Katy Perry loves Hello Kitty and dress in one!!! =P








Hello Kitty inspired Food!

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Meowww Meooww~

Switch Up Twitch up

You know how things can get a lil haywire throughout the days?!
Well yeah!
JUSTIN BIEBER... he is always singing cute songs like
"Baby Baby Baby Ohhhh Like Baby Baby Baby Nooo"-BABY-
And
"I'm overboard and i need your love to pull me up i can't swim on my own"-Overboard-
And
"I close my eyes and i just see a better day"-Pray-
He is the guy that every kids/teenagers want to get a piece of him and all the boys just hate the crap out of him!
I bring you Justin Bieber and his Belieber fans!

Bieber!
And his SCREAMING FANS!


And Now i PRESENT YOU THE RAPPING BIEBER!!!!!!

JUSTIN BIEBER & LIL WAYNE - DR BIEBER DROPPED MY WORLD

Ladies Love me

freestyle rapping

Bieber there is something i got to admit... your freestyle rap isn't that nice but i like it when you rap with Chris Brown but still rapping is not your game babe!
stick with your cute love songs , pop songs and r&b its just weird to see such a cute boy rap like the big boys!

i present you the big boys that RULE Rapping!

Mr. Lil Wayne

Mr. Pit Bull

Mr. Flo Rida

Mr. Eminem

Mr.Chris Brown

These are the rappers that i love most although rapping is very vulgar and often about Women , Sex , Alcohol and Money but who cares!i just love their music the beat is sick , some great artist like Eminem can sing very touching and true songs ! i just love them =)
Beiber i think you should stick with your A-Game that is to continue producing the same songs you sing =)

-i speak my mind out-
Peace Yall!!!
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