Its killing me

don't tell me those stuff i don't want to know.
you make me feel like slapping someone and drinking again
i just can't look its killing me!
really its killing me i got a kick on my face and i got bruises on my face and i hurt my arms and legs but all this scars are worth it!~
cause we are going to win it!
you don't have to make me remember the past
you make me feel like pulling a trigger and killing someone
the feeling is like i dont know!

Pirates All Girls team -SMK COCHRANE

July 10 and 11 is the Cheer Comp Nationals 2010

its going to be a huge event at Bukit Jalil Indoor Stadium

and i am freaking out because we are not finish yet with our polishing and finishing the routine!!!

it has been a very tense week

and we practice almost everyday everyone is exhausted

i understand its like we don't have time to breath

just thinking about it makes everyone switch mode from HYPER mode to MOODY mode

but yet , in this 2 weeks of training i understand a lot more about friendship sisters brothers one family...

you are never alone even if you get kicked out from your house yous sisters will always be there for you they will never leave you even if you don't have any blood relation with them

i love everyone in the cheer team Malay Chinese Other races we are all like a big family

ONE FOR ALL , ALL FOR ONE

we win together lose together we are going to do our 1000000% ALL OUT!

we might not be the BEST but we are always WINNERS in our heart and we already WON the game =)

we always have fun at training acting to be TOPGUN Best Cheer leading team haha =D we learn a lot learn how to really want something so BADLY that you would be WILLING TO DO ANYTHING to GET IT in a GOOD WAY!

PIRATES ALL GIRLS TEAM ARE WINNERS <3 3 =")

-Crystalbebe-

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GO FIGHT WIN!

this complicating shit

i hate this why does a person need to choose between 2 people!

why does everyone end up hurt at the end of the day

and why does every parent wants to mix into this shits!

THIS IS SO NOT GOOD I SUGGEST NEVER EVER TELL UR PARENTS ANYTHING

they will always find a thousand million reasons for you to not like someone or hate someone

but they only want to make them self happy they never think about us!

why does this world have to give me everything in the world at once and take it all back and make me suffer!

i am not happy its like i'm going to die of depression if i don't talk to anyone

everything you say hurts my feelings and you still don't get it!

oh well!Thats what we call PARENTS!

all of them are CLONES all the same!

Confusing

i'm confused
Je suis juste une grosse blague ... je l'ai vidé pour un autre gars et maintenant je pense que je crains que ce qu'il dit est vrai suis-je commencer à regretter ce que j'ai fait? Je ne sais pas ... i son esprit comme quand il ne se soucie pas de moi, je vais continuer à demander ce que l'enfer, je suis même de penser à ce qui est passé est passé je ne pouvais pas revenir en arrière et que vous souhaitez tout cela ne se produira jamais. Je suis le seul et pleurer sa disparition now.its comme ce que disent les autres quand quelqu'un perte u vous aimez le plus et vous l'avez vous-même vous vis regret.i ne peux pas croire que je pleurais parce que je suis de peur d'être seul Je pensais que j'allais être mieux sans lui, mais la vie me donne juste la limonade ... et je ne pouvais pas expliquer ce sentiment de la douleur dans mon coeur que je ne suis pas supposé sentir ... mais je pense qu'il est mieux avec quelqu'un d'autre ... il est passé et je le laisse et je suis le seul encore suspendu à un fil ...
Qu'ai-je fait ... Je lui briser le cœur et je me suis cassé mon cœur en même temps, c'est juste tellement injuste, je suis égoïste et je me suis accrochée à un fil et me suis procuré un couteau sur mon cœur qui me tue à l'intérieur



if u understand read it if you don't forget about it ...

-Crystalbebe-
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Love is IN THE AIR

its a BREAK UP MONTH
Some people gets all sobbed up while some just take it easy
its hard sometimes but still it makes you grow up
it makes you wake up from your sleep and show you that YOU have to wake up get out of your shell and not care about what people think or say
EVERYONE in this WORLD will tell you that what you do is wrong cause they don't know what you are thinking , what you want or who you are
they just SAW the side of them even me , i only see the side of what i WANT
and i won't care what happens i just WANT what i WANT even if it means the whole world will turn their faces to you and spit on me , i will still do what i want
this is life , life gives you some SWEET candy sometimes and they give you some SOUR milk but thats just life.
Just every step you take you grow up , you find out that what you want is not that and you try to get the BEST ...
you're so nice to me . waiting with me when i am alone. coming over to see me . listen to what i crap when i am sad . you said you are a regular commuter and i can't believe u trouble urself just to spend some time with me... you believe what i think and say . you are always beside me when i needed someone to understand me .




SHONTELLE-IMPOSSIBLE song is nice
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBkhZmuiDIk

-Crystalbebe-
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HATERS

Heyy Heyyy what did you just say?!

WHAT??? LOUDER PLEASE

i can't really hear you

WHAT u think this is mean?! well sorry think again! don't make me become who i'm not!

you seriously wouldn't like to MESS with me

what did u say u call me a FAKER?!

hellooo i didn't have to say that for the god sake of CENTRE OF ATTRACTION

neither do i need that for POPULARITY!

i did that so that people know that i didn't got DUMP!i say that i don't deserve you not for the god sake of attention so that people know that they are saying CHEER UP to the wrong person!

seriously do not ever EVER PISS ME OFF

if you want to talk bad about me next time please don't tell it to my BFF go tell it to the wall

make sure no one hears you!

New CHAPTER of my LIFE

I'm not evil i just can't lie to you...
i can lie to the whole wide world that i am madly in love but i just can't change the fact that i'm not
i'm not perfect i make mistakes i try to take a U-turn but it doesn't work i tried everyway but it doesn't work out right
i know people will say that i am a heartbreaker i don't deserve you.
you are too good to be with me
i'm just an ordinary girl that don't have any worth for you to love.i break your heart and i don't mind baring the name of HEARTBREAKER BAD PERSON EVIL STUPID i dont mind i just don't want to hurt you deeper! if i lie to you and continue i'm making it harder for you to accept when i leave you.
i'm being CRUEL to you i'm sorry but thats just life.
you can live without me perfectly =) cause you already move on and you really can live better without me you deserve better than me.

now i just want to focus on a few things in life :

1.Cheerleading

2.Studies

3.Friends

4.meeting more people

5.(also taking a popularity boast to the next lvl)

6. him... ...<3

7.losing weight

i'm a freak i admit it but i can't lie to you neither can i change what has been done or say

-CrystalBeBe-

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