Buzzle Bee 23/9/2010

Pressure is on , Stress is on
yesterday was a not so fun lantern festival because only me and my cousin Ashley 2 people playing candles!!! making shapes out of it ;D


Today its a whole new day can't really wake up today morning too tired i didn't want to go to school but then my mom scolded me so i ended up going to school with the PANDA EYES . Was so tired but first 2 period did some revision on the Maths Statistics with Chang Zhao . then English class... Gosh i can tell that teacher is not just PISSED!she is way beyond that! she screamed at ANDY for laughing at her well it wasn't really Andy's fault i mean he didn't say that "TEACHER IS JEALOUS BECAUSE SHE CAN'T MAKE JOSIAHS NEW HAIRSTYLE * spicky thats why and he is a prefect * But then she scream at Andy like this
Teacher : "ANDY I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU! GET OUT OF MY CLASS NOW!"
Andy : " still acting like nothing happen "
Teacher : "GET OUT!!!!!"
then Andy walked out of the class .
CUT that damn crap!
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I just feel like all these homework , revision , folio , experiments , not enough sleep and coffee driving me up the walls
today it was exhausting! i went back home i totally don't understand physics gas law i was panicking i was stressed out because i still got Komsas folio , Moral folio , English oral to type out , BM Lisan to type out and Re-do ...
then i studied it for awhile quitely then i understand already... i went to sleep and text him ;)
then woke up go for tuition before that i drank a cup of coffee because if i don't i am scared i will fall asleep! but didn't really work i end up getting hungry headache and sleepy in class but still i got focus lar!!! DUHHH!!
i miss him... sighs counting the days ...
Trials is next week good luck you can do it!!! i believe in you =)
GAMBATEH!!

Young Love ♥ Freedome ♥

you gave me a wake up call...
you make me realize that i need to start getting serious about my future what i want and how i want it to be like...
Future is something people usually try to run away from... you gave me a glance of my own future if i work hard...
i realize that form 4 has pass so fast and i didn't get anything out of it i wasted all my time on things that is not necessary ...
i told myself this year form 5 is taking SPM next year it will be us... i started panicking and getting scared...
so i decided to study hard from now... and see what i can make out of my life in the future its not that far though ...
i might not know how you and me will be like now or in the future but i just know that you are funny friendly you always make me laugh =) you are seriously one of a kind ...
you can make me feel like there is no need shouting at people using bad words or try being cool hanging out with everyone... you just have to be yourself ...
and people will love you if you love them a lot
things will come to you if you want it desperately
and if you care about people , people will care about you =)
today is moon cake festival Happy moon cake festival
Although i can't get the lantern i wanted but its okay you get mad at it for awhile then you get fed up of it you'll be like OK WHATEVER ..
And i really had a great time today in school...
Each of us brought 1 moon cake to school and well as usual i am lame so i bought a hot green tea too ;D
haha we all had fun eating sharing moon cakes and we even offer the Malay students and they like it =) they say its nice!!! hahaha
And i notice that everyone in the class seem to be growing up now ahahaha everyone is not making that much CHAOS in class and we all start to study FINALLY!!! ahaha
WELL now at night its time to celebrate this awesome festival with our families burning some candles and lanters ;D ahahah
<3
i miss ****♥
-signing off-
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Lantern Festival 18/9/2010 ♥

Tuition start at 830am and unfortunately i couldn't wake up and Jean went into my room and say "CRYSTAL WHY ARE YOU STILL SLEEPING! NOW 830 ADI! OMG YOU NEVER REPLY MY MSG I THOUGHT YOU WENT OFF WITHOUT ME " i went like " SHITTT!!!!!! AHHHHHHH * PANIC* sorry i over slept adi !!! cannot wake up i woke up 3 times yesterday 3something one time 5something one time 730 one time cause of HAZEL @___@ "
well we arrive at tuition almost 40min late and teacher went like saying
Cikgu: " errr next wed or thursday you all free for classes?"
crystal:*saying in my heart* shit!teacher want us to change class time ar cause we always late omg omg omg!!!!
Jean and me: ERRRR i think we all thursday boleh datang lar cikgu
Cikgu:" oh ok kerana saya next saturday ade khursus so replacement "
Crystal : * thinking * PHEWWWWWW.... that was a close one!!!! =D
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then Kasturi.... time pass so slow.... i was freaking out in class i kept asking jean omg do i look fat today ?! do i look short is my hair flat is my face too red?!!! OMG OMG
what happens if later He sees me and he runs away omg!!!!
Jean and wei yee went like AIYA! won't one lar! don't worry lar ....
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walking to VI FINALLY!!!!! HArlehhluyahhhh!
on the way i still wouldn't quit asking the questions about my hair my clothes do i look fat and i was panicking i went like oh goshhhhh what if later he saw me and he didn't want to talk to me ... i just felt my heart beating like crazy and my face is turning so red when we are walking into the school...
when we reach inside the carnival thr i went like looking around thinking AYE?! he is not there =( mood change....
then we went to ghost house gosh the ghost house was a long crawl and dark can't see anything but ok lar =) good job lar....
then finally!!! me and jean we saw him... well we saw the back of him i just went like OMG THATS HIM!!!! Ahhhhh so cute =D i was like omg omg omg so scared and excited....
i didn't go to him and talk to him cause i was too CHICKEN * COWARD * >0<
so i just went like sighs forget about it lar... ppl also never see me... nvm lar we go play DARTS =D ahahaha rm 2 for 5 darts i didn't even get 1 on the balloon
* ACTUALLY i saw him at the stall behind us but my back was facing him and his back was facing me so i didn't thought he can recognize me *
suddenly a hand cover my eyes smells like powder lols!!!! then i look back omg its him!!!!! i just went like SNAPP OMGGGGG... then he stand beside his friend while i continue playing darts well that was an embarrassing moment lols >0<'' but i was so happy!!!! i kept smiling lols although i try to act like nothing is wrong and everything is cool but i can't!!! OMG OMG OMG thats how i feel!!!!i feel so happy my heart beating so fast
then we all talk lar for the first time!!!!! ahahaha omg he is so cute =D
time past so fast then he and miow walk me and jean til the school gate lols the lanterns were nice they put a dim light on the sidewalks of the road =) but road is too dark can't see that well lols thank god i never fall flat on my face
teeheee <3 <3 happy day =) heeeheeee hmmm.... don't know how long long long more only can see him again probably a long time from now.... =/


-signing off-
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something missing

Come on! don't tell me you don't feel that way too
i mean having the excitement of walking out of the class seeing the person you love waiting for you ...
wanting to walk to the lrt station with someone beside you
you know going for short walks with em holding your hand saying lame jokes laughing your heart out
missing them giving you kisses on your cheek ...
missing them argueing with you about jealousy
missing having fights with them
miss those times where you and him just go out alone
miss those times where he puts his arm around you
miss those times where you both run around the whole place like mad people
making small cards for them
just looking at those couple doing the things you and him used to do you feel like " GOSH how did i end up ALONE AGAIN?" so stupid so sick and tired of everything
then after breaking up you keep staring at your phone and telling yourself " WHY ISN'T THIS STUPID PHONE VIBRATING?!!! SOMETHING MUST BE WRONG WITH THE LINE OR THE PHONE " but actually the loneliness and the silence is the one killing you slowly and you felt lost with no directions
Then there is when your Friends come in laugh at your lame jokes talk to you all the time help you kill all the sadness
go out for parties
talk to them everyday fall in love with them and it goes on and on and on...
the circle never stops...

-signing out-
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What if ♥

i am obsessed with Jason Derulo-What if...
its just so true =D
i don't know what tomorrow brings but i just hope that you are in it...
and i finally feel that if people don't appreciate you so why should you even bother and appreciate them
if they don't give a shit about you why not just turn back and walk away
its just so sad when you care about that person so much and they don't care about you
they tell you they care about you but you don't feel it
well
they just have to know better and treat you right if not SORRY DUDE U ARE OFF =)
turn around just smile hold back ur tears grip your hands tight
just be happy with the people around you at least they laugh at all your lame jokes
they are the people that will listen to you talk about something all the time and not just keep silence!!!
i just hope all these happy moments never end =)
cause its just the begining of a new chapter ... and i really didn't want it to end that fast ♥


-signing off-
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Pieces of the glasses

sitting in the class after seeing your messages i can hear my heart crushing into pieces
its like my lungs are falling in and my bones are crushing
its hurting so much...
each day feels like the picture of you is fading...
its like watching you go through my finger tips bit by bit
watching you leave wasn't easy
watching you go by just like that
i thought that i was going to be okay without you but then my eye sight is bluring again tears roll down my cheek
what happen? how did it all ended up like this? everything is like a broken piano that wasn't going to play the correct tune again
i miss the way you hug me so tightly
i miss the way you kiss my cheeks
i miss the way you hold my hand and we walk down the street
miss the times where you would care about me more ... ...
i just miss you
everytime when you get mad and throw your temper at me i would just look back and say what have i done? wha-t-t-t did i say something wrong
i feel like crying
i am serious i feel like i don't know what to do ! its like there is something in my throat its hurting me so much
you try to find the answer and you always search for what you want but they just don't seem to get it... ...

Epic ;D

MEEEEEE Crystalbebe ;D A.K.A Vanilla baby

MR.WyKean A.K.A POTATO


Wykean says:
ahha
y not? he knows you
he find you very cute
I say:
r u sure!!!!
since when he said that
or u made it up
lols
Wykean says:
honestly
we talked about you
lol
:X
I say:
omg!
what he say?
Wykean says:
ahaha
yea, he find you very cute and beautiful?
then theres one of my friend
go check you out on fb, and say you are not
james said that he is blind
LOL
I say:
lols
really
Wykean says:
yea
I say:
someone say i am ugly
omg
Wykean says:
and i agree

I say:
='(
Wykean says:
no
not ugky
I say:
u agree that i am ugly!!!!
Wykean says:
ugly
I say:
NOOOOOOOOO
i hate you!!!!
Wykean says:
noooooooooo
omg
wait
I say:
u call me ugly again
='(
Wykean says:
u listen 1st
I say:
hahaha
sheyy
Wykean says:
before things get s worst
I say:
i know lar
ahahhaha
Wykean says:
oooioioioi
I say:
i understand
i act stupid only
Wykean says:
you dont
I say:
ahahah
funny lar!
Wykean says:
lets me talk
ahaha
I say:
k
Wykean says:
stupid
but i still need to explain
before you act stupid and be stupid at the same time
xD
i said i agree with james
and my friend say u are not his type of thingy
but he is not good looking
I say:
hot his type of thingy
wow
Wykean says:
geeky nerd
I say:
not
Wykean says:
so dont have to care
LOL
I say:
thingy
wow
Wykean says:
lol
I say:
i didn't know your nerdy friend discribe girls as an object
ahahaha!!!!

you were too fly

i am not a hotel where you can check in and check out ... you don't check in and out your love to me i don't buy it
i don't buy sweet talk i don't buy any shit!
okay i am sick of suffering in pain
i feel like what you say made me feel like my bones and dislocating my heart hurts but then u told me to suck it up
i think about it now yeah i'll suck it up!
i'll just have fun with my life before i get older
i talk to Justin =) he is so sweet!
yeah i mean like duhhh we are all 16 we should have fun! before all our loves become conditional love ... love we give when we are young are call pure love but when we get older everything changes you have to think about money love family and shits!
i just notice that when you have a partner A.k.A BOYFRIEND! you actually tend to forget about your dear lovely best friends!
Every conversation with your best friend will start of like this:
A :" Heyy =)"
B :" yeah ?"
A :" How are things going between you and him?"
B :"OK LAR! ( MALAYSIAN SLANG!)"
A :"i think u better be going if not later he jealous ar!"
B :"ok , bye"
A :"bye tty NEXT ROUND "
what happen to all the jokes the funny moments you spend together with your friends the freaking long conversations talking on the phone for hours about what you should wear and planning a party at someones house , going out 24/7 , checking out some hot guys or girls , planning to make some prank calls?
what happen jeez i really don't know
those days when we haven't fall in love with some boys! we used to hang out do everything together and we used to love our friends so much we couldn't stop sticking with them!

Will be continued...
-signing off-
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