Cheer day ;D

today i wake up early for Bm tuition
after tuition went for cheer practice
well its really fun i mean you can never stop laughing at what the guys are doing and the way they speak its just so funny =D
we are practicing for the sports day event well i don't mind going for training everyday and not getting any marks but my mom mind more than i do...
i mean its not like i need those marks to get a job or something haha!!!!
i just like dancing and laughing with all the girls and guys its just so fun to hang out with them
although some ppl look at us up and down and think hmmmmm SO WRONG!!! EWWWW SO GAY SO GIRLY but jeezzz thats not what i think whats wrong with being a cheerleader its fun and happyyyyyy you can say that its gay haha ;D after all HAPPY A.K.A GAY!!!
ahaahhahahah WEEEEEE
jeeeezzz long time i never see myself laugh like today
i webcam him and i see his face i keep smiling i didn't know y i keep laughing too and he do some things to make me laugh and almost everything he do puts a smile on my face i can't remember whn was the last time i laugh like that haha!
maybe its cause too much pressure is on folio , essay questions , chemistry , bio , pyhsics , notes , latihan , exam , piano exam ...
i wanna spend time with him more but jeezz i couldn't but oh well!!! so looking forward to wednesday "SPORTS DAY" WEEEE and after that keep my fingers cross i get to hang out with him for awhile ;) dying to be beside him nowwwwww <3

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Uber Sweet 16 birthday basshhhh

I think its every 16 yeaar old dream to have a uber super cool party inviting all of your friends over to your place partying hard running around like kids eating cake and splashing coke on ur friends head dance around like monkies! that is super awesome <3
i know my birthday is like december 23 long way to go but hey no harm tryin to plan it from now rite haha lols
i wanna have a huge birthday bash with all my friends here singing the birthday song with me its gonna be so niceeeeeee sweet and fun!
things i want to accomplish before my birthday
1.cut down on my weight
2.study freaking hard til my brains burst
3.cheer like crazy
4.make lots and lots of new friends
5.be with my boyfriend and love him like hell
6.go to the beach
7.go sunway
8.get a LBD
9.earn cash
10.partyyyyyy likeee crazy with my babes

weeeeeeee super crazyy haha ;)

[Verse 2 - Ciara]
And every time I think about you (I cry)
When you ride when you call when you come I (around)
Your love is a-mazing to me
Can't wait til I see you (I wanna be wit you again)
And every time you're out on the road (I make a trip)
And whenever I'm doing a show (Don't you forget)
That I'm your (main chick)
Who got that (game chick)
One and the (same chick)
The one you can hang with

[Hook - Bow Wow & Ciara]
I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that's what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like u)

[Verse 3 - Bow Wow]
Okay when you hit the mall pop tags spend a few g's (g's)
Hit the runway to a new season (season)
It ain't nothin it's you the one I care for
Feel like I ain't doing enough that's when I share more (share more)
I give you this give you that what you need love (love)
You know I got it holla at me if you need love (love)
And affection cause i'll be your protection
Kinda hard job but i'll do it to perfection
And you can tell that I ain't tryna let you go
I get with you when I can so that's how I let you kno
And you be trippin cause sometimes I gotta go
But you the first one I hollared to right after my shows
And I was trippin in a sense I was tense
From my body loose around you what imma do without you
I gotta get it together say whateva
But since I met you my life seems so betta

19/2/2010

went to andy's house for party it was awesome i get to see reek freaking awesome!!!
hug him like crazy but didn't get to take much pics =(
but still i had fun!!!!
ch'ng ee did some funny moves like walk and wave like a girl and we went like repeating what he do and put some ADD ONS like winking and say call me!!!haha
wanted to take pic but andy forgot!!!! swts
had so much fun talking only then we all drink bailey's mint chocolate!!! WOW it was really sweet at first and the smell went up to my brain! it tasted like NAIL VARNISH REMOVER!!!yucks but still i drink 1 cup haha crazyyyyyy got headache after drinking that !
then we went outside for a walk i wanted to ride the bicycle but i don't dare to go up cause its really huge and i scare i fall off so sad!!!jeezzz i can't remember whn was the last time i ride a bicycle?! like what 4 years ago haha!!!!
CRAZAAYYY
went home bout 12 reach home bout 1 went and sleep got scolded by my mom...
angry at her but its my fault after all...
jeeezzz shit this post is freaking short cause the one i typed just now i didn't know why it was not publish cause of some error and i have to re-type it again and i cut out lots of part well nvm its ok =)
Friday night its time to party drop it down and get real naughty
haha Millionaires-ALCOHOL song niceeeeee ;D
sweet awesome who can ask for more ?
although i spend like less than 1 hour of time with reek , its ok because every moment with him makes all my problems disappear he will always put a smile on my face no matter what happen between us
its just so weird how he can make me laugh for no reason smile like a freak n say the wrong thing all the time trip on my words and make me really nervous i guess thats something call love ...


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14feb2010 Valentines Day and Chinese New Year

I set the alarm 8 o clock sharp
when it rang in the morning i woke up switch it off and went back to sleep i didn't know why usually i would be like jumping up and down running to the bathroom bath and wake everyone up and get ready to go out... i guess i was too tired i woke up bath got ready and i went to my grandpa's house everyone was thr whn we got thr
it was really crowded everyone is like in the CNY mood all RED =) even some of my cousins uncles dye their hair RED!!!!haha well i wore red shirt red shoes too!!!!
then i pray first then collect all my ANG POWS WEEEE ;) then it was totally boring!!!no one thr plays card seriously haha but me n my cousins bout the same age we went and CAMWHORE!!!! we did funny pose take lots of pics and we had a gay old time but well some of our relatives went like staring at us like WEIRD!!!!these kids are WEIRD haha but who cares we don't lols
then it was time to leave i went back to my home to get ANG POW and greet the other relatives when i got home MIRACLE!!!!everyone was still thr like waiting for me to come home haha lols
i invited reek and victor to my house to get ang pows then we play cards
then for like 1 hour we went out to pav it is Valentines day so i wanted to like watch Valentines Day with him to celebrate but then when we went to pav cinema OMFG!!!it was flooded with ppl and i just went like please god please let us have a seat but unfortunately all full all sold out we just went like urrrgggghhh!!!!! we walk back to TS to watch movie and its still the same all sold out we were damn sad then we went to eat and we jalan jalan well both of the guys went to arcade i just stand thr like a weirdo freak next time i am gonna join them too lols i don't want to stand thr and do ntg lols!!!!
then we went home by taxi =)
i was sleeping on his shoulder with his hands wrap around me i just love the way that feels
then we went to my place to watch movie we watch THE COVENANT i actually watched that movie for like 2 times but i still watch lar then we took pictures and it was seriouly 110%better than go out just sitting in my room watching movie is the best i hug him and we take pictures
i wish time stopped thr and i hoped it last forever thinking about it now makes my heart pound like crazy and my face turn red like a tomato...
but sometimes i seriously don't know how to say what i feel but i know its real...i am being myself but its just the other side no one ever knew (well except for my 2BFF's well they know how wild i can go lols)
it was the happiest Valentines day ever seriously i wish time stopped and i wish he never go back so early i wish i can be with him forever i wish i can hug him for hours and lastly i wish he will never get bored of me and leave me...
i really love him so much i don't know how to say it but sometimes i am just so shy i couldn't say things out loud but i really know what i am doing and what the hell i am thinking i know but when i want to say it out it just doesn't come out it just got stuck at my throat and its like MUTE...
its like someone click the MUTE button i know what to say but the voice is just not coming out...
and i know that sometimes it hurts so much...i get how you feel cause i feel the same way too sometimes i just feel like closing the door and crying out loud i feel like drinking and make myself dizzy and say out what i feel...but i just can't...
i really love you so much and it hurts so much when your upset i know you say its ok but deep down i know how you feel i know you are waiting for me to say it but i just didn't say it out loud its just pure disappointment and that is the time when you feel like the world is upside down and what you want isn't coming out well and you feel like biting someones head off like a gummy bear...
i am sorry but i love you baby <3 no matter what happen i will love you now , always and forever i just hope that i can call you in my dreams and tell you everything i know bout that day i miss you so much babe and from now on i set my mind i am gonna be brave and i am gonna try and tell you how i feel and everything i am not gonna change being my old self i am just gonna be better than before :)
and i really love you alot can you hear me if you see this can you feel how i feel every single word i type its not just for the god sake of fun its real every single feeling in this page its all how i feel and things i never get to speak out and say ...being with you is never bored being with you its like a roller-coaster ride being with you it is 100% unpredictable and being with you is the happiest momment in my life being with you is when i feel like i am myself and i don't have to hide


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Cheer Training

its Friday today. Most of the people in our class didn't show up class was unusually Silence well that is cause andy never come to school...
but Jeez!!!now only i notice everyone in the class breaks the rules haha almost everyone brought their phone and stuff like that
OMG wahyu brought her ITouch its just gorgeous i think her one is nicer !!!
omg so cool!!! we watch the Girls generation-GeeGee MV for like more than 4 times its just so nice!!!OMG
i am so loving it!!!and the teachers that came into class didn't really teach they just spend more time talking n the worst is that our english teacher show up like really late until the last 15min of class she show up and sit down and say ok u guys do ur things we just went like YESSSSHHHHHHH!!!!!
then after school well i was a lil crazy i start saying happy Chinese New year , happy Valentines and happy holiday to like everyone haha
a lil nuts ;)then went to Ampang Point to get my hair cut i eventually tot that thr will be no ppl thr but it seems like i am wrong thr is like so many ppl thr!!!
i waited for about 30min thr just to wait for my turn ... when the guy looked at my hair he just went like "Wah ur hair so long and so dry u have to cut it shorter" i just went like shit!!!i am trying to leave my hair really really long lols but i just went like saying"ok but not too short just cut a lil bit and the fringe cut it a lil shorter too long adi " then after like 30min done my bro pay the bil and he just went like "did that guy straighten ur hair for you it looks really straight " i just went like no lar just blow dry my hair thats why it looks so straight
then after that we ate MCD OMG so not nice!!!!!yucks thinking about it makes me wanna puke!!!! haha
then i quicly rush to KP cheer practice when i got thr they just went like 4 rounds running i just went like OMg nooooooo!!!but i ran haha i ran 3 rounds only then we do stretching at first coach haven't reach yet so the training was like still easy but when the coach come she really push us to the limit!!!TIL we can't stand it...
i cried but then i just tahan after all i am a tough girl and we don't give up that easy!!!!! =) we just train so hard i can tell u that i am gonna celebrate my CNY and Valentines day with scars on my legs(obviously) and my arms haha!!!!
after that i just smile and laugh at myself just like a freak sitting down suddenly u hear me laughing and smiling lols!!!!although its really hard but hey we made it!!!without complaining (well a lil lar) but still i think i done my best(although its not really 110%) but still its a 80% =)
after all the training i am so tired i went home bath and i ate then i didn't feel like getting up again so tired!!!! but i swear this training can really make me slim down and i am so gonna do it everyday!!!!! ;D Gila betul haha!!!
then i talk to reeekkkkyyyyy and webcam him well its really nice to know that after all the shit u done thru and u feel like ur gonna go mad or break down , u know that someone is beside you and he will always give u a kick and say HEY YOU WAKE UP!!!! LIFE IS NEVER EASY AND COPE UP WITH THAT!!♥
love you so much reekyyy although sometimes u make me feel like hating you but i still can't oh well!!!!! ;) ♥


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10feb2010

went to school well got so screwed!
the LEO Valentines day project the chocolates packaging well i didn't really show up for that part so everyone didn't like me on that day i am not sure if they are ok with me now but i think they still thinks i am a fucking jerk...
i can't help it i really never mean to screw up shit but hey what the hell at least i said sorry and i delivered the chocolates and ask them to change my name from the packaging leader to one of the most useless jobs...
then i went and eat with HL i was actually not feeling well sore throat but we went to Madam Lim's to eat lols eat spicy fried rice so screwed!!!haha
then went to kas alone went back home wait i can't remember...i think alone also and on the way walking back home saw Farishah's bf wave at him and go home
then practice piano my day was just so fucked up... and i went for piano class after that it was about 10something i walk to old town near AP to meet up with my bro...
he is chilling out with his friends thr i just went thr sat down and we all talk lols amazing i can actually get what they are saying and join in the topic it was really fun and talk to my beloved darling for almost an hour! and ordered a ice blended dunno what mocha or something that tasted like coffee but who cares as long as its something to drink and its really nice!!!
haha
i can seriously spend hours talking to my bro friends and talking to my bf at first it was like so boring but then when we got something to talk about we just can't stop talking AS USUAL ;D ahaha
then bout 11 something my mom call me n went like saying "where are u n kor kor! come back now no need to sleep ar?" i just went like "okayyy mommmyyyyy"
my bro's friends are seriously Awesomeeeeee!!!!!!
reach home about almost 12 then pack my bags just when i am about to fall asleep suddenly the phone rang and it is him =D
he said he can't sleep cause the electricity went off the aircorn not working so i talk to him for awhile and we both went to sleep
well at first it started out as a fucked up wednesday but after that well i guess its all my fault n i deserved that but at least at the end of the day it turn out to be a pretty great day

11Feb2010
i am starting to pay more attention in class
doing my revision
but damn the whole classroom is like a oven!!! so hot!!! i took off my shoes and the teacher scold me haha ;)
then teacher change our places i sit with Wahyu now haha really fun!!!!
i love her pencil box its like a huge bag!!!!haha full with everything a person need for art and craft!!!haha
i draw my book draw the table with black marker pen haha
we even have names for ourself
Wahyu-Miss Chocolatie Cookie
Me- Miss Peanut butter Chubby Monkey
karman-Miss SweetCake
Fatin-Miss Specta-Cular Sweetie

i didnt really have the mood to eat today i just felt like i don't know hard to eat lols ...feel headache fever sore throat lols
FEEL freaking sick!
i wrote lots of things in my book
haha
most ppl think the things i write is sweet but don't think he will appreciate it >0<''!!!
OMG all the guys and girls in our class is so into Valentines gifts!!! Flowers Chocolates Cards Bear Ring Necklace Clothes Bag anything that can make their other half happy they will do it lols!!! haha <33

signing off for now -Miss Peanut Butter Chubby Monkey ahaha

7feb2010 last day of comp

it was the last day of comp and we saw the newspaper we are the second and only 1 mark difference we can be number 1...i was a lil nervous on that day no doubt adding i couldn't jump high enough and i was scared i am gonna fail the team and i seriously blame myself...how i wish if i can jump higher maybe there is more points...urrggghh!!!!
we went to mamak at first cause the comp start at about 3 and then after makan we wait for everyone to arrive we went to sunway pyramid OMG it is like so NICE!!!!shit i never been to sunway in my entire life this is the first time seriously i bet ppl will be like WTF crystal u jakum!!! Sunway pun tak pergi be4 ahahaha lols after all i used to say i live under a rock!!! (jeez reminds me of spongebob square pant's Patrick!) haha
then we just went into the parking then one phone call 'go the the comp place now' swts T___T then drive out adi didn't even get to step in haha but its ok!!!!! after all i am gonna go thr one day not sure when but one day =)
when we got thr we practice our steps and make sure we sharp up everything remember the countings and i did my walk over and put on make up n it was show time... i was seriously nervous but when i got in i just do my best i remember my jump haha when the first jump i look back at the vid i saw my legs so low! then the second one i dont think i saw my legs at least it didn't look that bad!!! >0<'' .... after the performance we all went up well we all hug each other and thank god this is over!
we went up and we took pictures i really had so much fun although i only know pojjie bard AJ boon ea chuan farishah tiff mark syafiq and the other guy omg i am so sorry i can't remember ur name but i can remember ur face!!~! =) i really feel so happy i feel like its the best time ever and i hope it lasted long enough
well when they announce the winner well we were a lil happy but disappointed cause we got number 2 but hey guess what we got 2 awards we even got the best showmanship award i guess that is pretty awesome!!!! =D
then we all EMO for awhile then go mamak makan wohooo lols haha
i reach home about 11 something bath and pack my bag about 1 something and i wake up the next day about 630 haha almost late to school but then i reach on time ;)
well i didn't felt sleepy at first but until after BM class i think i slept but everyone was so noisy i just went like "Fog u ppl let me sleep please!"
and i still need to stay back for chinese class today 8Feb2010 omg i almost died in class jeezzzz damn tired first thing i come home i bath and i slept til 7 something i was waked up by my cousin bro well he walk up the stairs n just went like hugging my bro and talking so loud i counldn't sleep adi zzz....
i miss u so much!!!! n i miss everyone ..i miss pirates ...i miss yesterday...i miss syafiq...i miss those time when i felt like i am gonna break down n cry and crush into pieces when i can't get something correct...
thanks to you guys i am stronger than ever and even if everything is wrong i would smile and laugh and make sure everything is alright =)
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6Feb2010 Cheer Comp METRO♥

today i woke up 7 in the morning i wanted to go jogging (ok i'll cut the damn crap i am having a cheer comp today n i only train for like what 4 days n i am freaking nervous from 2 days ago i have been panic-ing and freaking out) i wanted to jog so that later when i warm up it would be easier but i was too lazy so i went on the walker and start walking for 5mins and i do my stretching...by the time i finish its about 740 almost 8 i went n bath n put on my uniform well it looks kinda strange n weird don't look like me!!!haha and the skirt was like short! i never dance with a skirt be4 ok maybe last time but now when i grow up i dont dance using a skirt! EWWWW who would do that! (ok maybe someone somewhr but totally not me!♥) then i quickly grab all my make up stuff like that then i rush down and eat i am suppose to be at school by 9 and 830 i am still eating i just went like SHIT i am so gonna be late but MIRACLE do happen ahaha i reach school 3mins be4 9 ahaha!!!!awesome then when teacher ask MANE IC??Check and see got bring or not if not cannot enter the comp i check my bag purse i just went like "FOGG!!! shit no IC" i quickly call my bro "BRING MY IC NOW" n i just went like going to jj put on the make up lols haha then about 20min my bro reach pass me the IC then after that we went to the place OMG so many Male smoking shirtless and sweaty n stuffy yucks!!!!EWWW seriously i never been to such yucky place be4
we try out the floor mat not good we tot it was gonna be small but it seems to be bigger i was seriously freaking nervous be4 the comp start but when it started and we perform i didn't feel scared anymore i just feel like OMG i am so happy it was seriously FUN!!!! ahahaha i love it!!!! omg i can't believe i said that but it is seriously a great experience and even though we practice like mad n tired n we hurt our self but it is worth it i had so much fun known so many new ppl know their personalities and its great hahaha I LOVE CHEER ♥ I LOVE PIRATES ♥I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND ahaha lols
sesat!!! ahaha i wish he was thr today i bet i would give 210% but i gave my 110% today its great haha love it!
i miss him so much urrggghhhh i never talk to him for like a few days cause i was bz with training tuition no time to online and his phone habis credit sad! but at least he is having fun going out with friends =) mwahs! love you so much darling ♥
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What you get is exactly what you give
Never really know until you try
We're so ahead of this
Got this she wolf appetite that keeps me up all night
You know the way it works don't be afraid to ask
Aim high when the target is low
FYI I am ready to go
People say men are just like kids
Never saw a kid behave like this

What you give is exactly what you receive
So put me in a cage and lock me away and i'll play the games that you want me to play

You can have it all
Anything you want you can make it yours
Anything you want in the world
Anything you want in the world
Give it up to me