Spark In Your Eyes , Fire in your soul

Remember how you felt when you are 6 years old ?
That spark in your eyes and that certain feeling of excitment to see Tomorrow??
Its that feeling you have when you wake up in the morning with that smile on your face and go like "OH YEAH! ITS A BRAND NEW DAY WOOHOOO , I WONDER WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO TODAY!"
Especially during Festivals like Chinese New Year or celebrations like Children's Day , you feel so energetic and you will get up 5am in the morning and can't wait to get on the road! When we are young , CNY seems to be this fun celebration you know! Like running around with your cousins , playing hide and seek , drink coke and burp loudly *Have burping competitions* , excitement to open up all your angpau packet , excited to see what food is prepared on the dining table and excited to listen to all these loud chinese new year songs .
As a year go by and another year pass , that spark of fire seems to slowly fade away like melted chocolate under the rain , slowly being diluted and slowly disappear leaving no trace behind. When you grow older , maybe when you are 14 years old , Chinese New Year seems to be boring , you can't even wake up that early anymore , when your cousins come to your house or when you go to your cousins house , you probably end up watching TV and not talking that much. You start to not enjoy chinese new year songs cause its so annoying . You don't play hide and seek anymore its just getting more and more boring. The excitment to see Tomorrow just slowly dies off.

Maybe because when we grow older , we tend to see more truth behind the lies that we never notice when we are younger. We tend to have more choices when we grow older , more decisions to be made , more reality check , more cruel facts , more mistakes made that made us guilty and a clearer look on what is happening in this society and people around us.
Things changes from time to time , even we change from time to time without noticing . Time made us all grow up even if we refuse to grow up , refuse to take notice or understand what is going on in our lives , eventually we will have to get out of our egg shells and see the world.
Well Magics always happen in fairy tales , even in real life they do . In life you will always meet that feel people that will make you feel motivated and make you feel that tomorrow will be a better day , and they can always make you feel that living in this world is really worth it because you got a goal to follow and a dream to be completed.
Tomorrow will only be full of hope if today someone gave you something to believe in :)



"One bad thing about human is that we can never predict what is going to happen tomorrow , but god is fair and He gave us a choice to live today full of laughter and joy so that no regrets will be made"-Quotes by Crystalbebe

Song dedicated to everyone who is currently reading this post :)




-signing out-
Crystalbebe1301
Brand New Day ♥

Who do you think you are

wassup bro! Don't like that la MAcaaaaa!!!!! i didn't mean to win all your money in a game of black jack lar!!! Broo RM1 only marrr ahahah XD


Hey :) its me again! Happy chinese new year!
this year was the best chinese new year ever cause my every year resolution finally came true! I've always wanted to have a real family reuion and this year , thank you lord :) thank you for giving me a chance to have a real reunion not even one person is lack in this reunion and i love it..
it was a touching scene to see how a father and his son reunite again after so long being away and so caught up with life.
This year everyone's faces are happier i saw extra smiles and tears inside peoples' eyes...
No matter what mistakes you did , the only one that will stand by your side and be with you are always your family...




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21 Jan 12, 02:52 AM
forget it: type like you is ubiquitous in this day and age. sad case.
21 Jan 12, 02:46 AM
forget it: between drunk and easy and stupid. just that. period. opps. except you miraculously grow some brain and realise your type is a no go ****. lthxbyai
21 Jan 12, 02:44 AM
forget it: judging from everything that you are, forget it, you, like many unfortunate ones in the world, will never yes never understand or even get close to the real meaning of a relationship and border
21 Jan 12, 02:39 AM
i will retain anonymity: god pls, dont be stupid you lil girl. and, you've truly seen nothing yet so dont use the word love coz people your age might have experienced it, but not you. dont shame the word. wake up
21 Jan 12, 02:38 AM
i will retain anonymity: please dont make anything out of what happened to you. hope no intimacy was involved and never wiill till real marriage, after it not before. you're a pretty girl. dont be an idiot pls.
21 Jan 12, 02:22 AM
fact: disappointedly, lack of discipline!
21 Jan 12, 02:21 AM
fact: two weeks? come on. simply means you were never serious and are too open minded of a person. not an ideal person to be with by any standards. no wish for rudeness but wake up.
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Whatever lar :D u can talk all you want be my guest ;) IDGAF! unfortunate guy/girl that wants attention from a blog that is not even famous D: OMG~!
hahahaha :D Come on lar i can't blame you for being so shallow cause you obviously don't know the whole story and you don't know me :) i don't blame you lar dude who wrote this *NOT SO MEAN* comments XP "sense my sarcasm". I suggest that you should think both ways and both sides when you try to comment and say something , my point of view is 360 degrees different than u!Its my blog! i don't have to keep my thoughts to myself cause i can write and do whatever i want :) U on the other hand should should keep your thoughts to yourself. If you think that i have never loved before then so be it lar :) i know what i'm doing , where i'm going from here. Your opinion is neither require nor desired.FYI all these blog posts its just part of the story i don't write the full stories so yeah! Say all you want , be my guest :D
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images from google!! :)



Woopsieeee ;D

Second Week Of College

College is awesome no doubts about it! Its relaxing , everyone is chilling its really like the college/school life you see in Movies or Gossip Girl Drama etc etc! There are lockers in college , when you walk down the hall way you see people sitting around in those round tables near the hallway , then there are these water dispenser , junk food dispenser even maggie mee cup dispenser! The library is so comfortable the chairs , the design it really makes you feel as if you are in USA's Ivy league schools!
Every you go its never hot or warm in the campus except for the toilet well , they don't put air conditioner in the toilet so obviously its the only warm place you can find!
Moreover , you do not have to ever walk stairs! because we have escalators in the college campus , there is even a ECA section where there are pool table , table tennis area , a longue for people to sit and chill! Beisdes that , they have a lot of quiet zone study room where it sorta look like glass cubes!
You can walk down the hall way and smile at anyone and they will smile back at you! its so fun you get to chill and really hang out , meet NEW PEOPLE! from DIFFERENT SChool , different countries! Its really great! and they have a wide range of Extra curricular activities! You get your own tag its like a pass to enter the school and stuff like that! In the Labs you dont have to share equipments with your friends and stuff because you get your own lab area and your own set of equipments so its really awesome cause you never have to share your experiment results or like wait for your turn to carry out the experiment.
I bet you are all starting to wonder which college am i in rite?!!! Taylor's College Sri Hartamas :) well i bet there are a lot of bad press saying that you know the fees is really expensive , the teachers are not very experience or the teacher are always MIA!
well i'm here to clear things up for you and clear the fog that is blurring your eyes.
Yes the fees is really expensive compared to other colleges because it has the kinda quality!
The teachers here are really friendly and experience , they are really good at what they are doing :) their communications skills are 120% and you have the freedom to talk or point out what you think its wrong or right. In taylor's there are only maximum 25 people in a class room so you get really cozy with them and you don't have an excuse to be a coward and keep quiet if you don't know something .
Teachers here even give one-on-one time with those who request extra tutoring , They are willing to explain the same thing to you for a thousand times!
Well i bet you will be wondering how i know that rite?! I've just been in college for like 1 weeks and 2 days and i've asked the teachers a lot of questions . I even asked the Economic's teacher this particular question for like 3 times and she had to explain it to the whole class for 3 times but she didn't scold me! Well if i were to ask my secondary school teacher for 3 times i think i would be standing outside of the class by now XD or i'll probably get black listed by my teacher! but well the LECTURERs here are more than willing to teach and explain they will be mad if we just kept quiet and not tell them what we don't understand.

I love My COLLEGE!!! Woohoooo
catch up with me as i will start posting about a real life story of a father and a daughter :)

New Chapter Of Life -officially 18 years old

Chubby Bunny


2011 has been a great year no doubts , i have my sweetest moments in life , i was naive enough to think that i would marry someone that i am with at that age! I was silly to let small things get between me and my friends!
but let me tell you something , after i learn how to let go , i feel happier , i feel that i am unstoppable like SUPERMAN!!! WOohooo!
i enjoy spending all of my time with my friends and family its just funny and awesome!
well i love the past but what is done will be burried forever! so yeah in comes the year of the DRAGON ;) *Fierce entrance*
may the year of 2012 bring us good health , good luck , joy , laughter , more good memories , more friends , more parties , live life to the fullest , good wealth! and obviously good start for college life baby!
Its the first year i celebrated new year eve outside at a restaurant with my friends
<3 Caffeiness is the place we partied last night!

don't care about tomorrow because no one can predict what is going to happen , so you just gotta live it to the fullest and cherish what u have today

me and Tiger ;)


muaaaa ;)


my crazy friends!


the girls ;)


my lovely brother , no matter how fucked up i am , how much i screw up , how much my attitude get into his nerves , he will always accept me for who i am.


Welcome into the big family Kevin Chee =)


Clarence Chang =)
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Don't let a girl fall for you if you are not willing to catch her... no matter wide you open your arms , if you do not have the intention of catching her , she would still fall flat on the ground.
Think first before you love , think again before you show affection... because every move you make no matter right or wrong , can lead people to a wrong direction.If you think that ignorant is the only way out i bet you have a lot of regrets in life. Ignorant is the lamest excuse to quitting and it is equivilant to blind folding yourself in life.

Learn to flip open every single card before you make a choice...
Learn how to take control of your own emotion
Learn how to tolerate
Learn how to love without doubts
Learn how to fall before you fly...
Learn how to mend your broken wings
Learn how to stand alone when everyone is not there for you
Learn how to be independant
Learn how to be confident in every word or action you say or do
Learn how to be a better and happier person

Dear 2012 ,
i hope that even if i fall flat on the ground , you would pick me up and tell me its alright . I also hope to always have someone by my side to talk to me , cheer me up , be retarded with me , accept me for who i am , to love and forgive my past and mistakes , to help me in my studies and i also hope that this year i am mature enough to think for myself and get that scholarship i need to further my studies.I am finally 18 this year , i can't say that i am old enough to do anything , i also can't assume that i'm too childish to try anything but i just hope that this year , everything i do will leave no regrets . I don't want to carry the world on my shoulders anymore , from this year onwards , i just want to let go of my burdens and just learn how to fly with love , joy and happiness.

1January2012
-Crystalbebe-

Freedom

Hey sorry guys i have been in a state of depression something like that lar after having some love problems!!
But hey! i got something to share
I've always felt that he was the one sometimes i don't realize that i am actually hiding from the truth , hiding from the fact that maybe that spark has been long gone , and that loving moment has been over.From time to time we are always making choices , brain storming , changing our minds , changing ourselves for the better and preparing ourselves for what the future is going to bring.
But sometimes we don't realize that instead of moving forward we are actually running in circles over and over again.My friend told me like hey why are you so stuck up in your own misery, why are you doing this to yourself you are just 17 years old , because of a guy you do this to yourself? you get yourself all depressed all emotional and all teary? is it worth it? you are just 17 , how many things have you encounter? how many people have you met? HOW MANY PARTS OF THE WORLD HAVE YOU SEEN? How much bitter have you gone through? Well its nothing , in this 17 years we will always find this one guy we think that HE IS THE ONE , HE WILL BE THE ONE THAT WE ARE GOING TO GET MARRIED TO IN THE FUTURE... Well think again :) it took me probably 2 weeks or more to think about it over and over again , think like hey What have i done to myself!
We are just 17 we are suppose to enjoy life , be with friends , have fun! Go on road trips , go on vacations and stuff like that ! then why be so glued up to your man/girl? its not logical you don't know what tomorrow brings , you just stay at the same spot not wanting to explore this wonderful world you just hope to stay with that person you love at the moment...

Let me tell you a story , i have a friend well she is a girl , she met this boy during high school and thought that they would be able to walk a long way , get married have kids and stuff like that but after being with that person for almost 5 years , she realized that he wasn't the one...
5 years and that relationship went down the drain...because of one thing , different thoughts and dreams ... We might share the same aspirations at first but well 1 year goes by and another year past again how sure are you that you will still stay the same have the same opinion about something??
We might think that we are mature enough to handle something but actually at this age , no one is mature enough to make the correct judgment ..Not you , Not me , Not us . We all can't judge a situation properly...

After being alone for a few days and finally allowing myself to go out and socialize with others again , i found out that hey love isn't everything... It might be everything when you are in it , but when you are out of it , you see a lot of things you never notice before , you look at stuff in a different dimension..
i feel really happy honestly!!! i have never feel so carefree before?! well should i say GAY! XD
its really fun being around with your girl friends you know dyeing their hair for them , having slumber parties , loiter around the shopping mall , look at bra and undies! its something i never do for a very long time... i have always think this way if i ever have time i would want to spend all of it with my boy but then i have just realize how foolish i was =)
Boys come and go but best friends are there forever! Really They would always stick up for me! whenever i have problems with someone or someone hurt my feelings they would be the first to hold a shovel and hunt that bastard down (Well its just a saying lar but we don't do it!!!)
I finally understand what is freedom =)
its really fun! you don't have to worry about him not replying your text , don't even have to think about what to give him on his birthday or on your anniversary! Its like i have been caging myself for so long too long , and now when i unleash myself i go WILD!
Party all day , hang out all night! talk all day and night , go out with anyone i want its just great! :)

Well like what Jojo said in her song DISASTER

"So disaster strikes but I'm alright cause my love is on its way"

Letting go wouldn't make you a weaker person , it will only make you see things clearly , face reality , and it will only make you grow stronger

Like what they all say
"What don't kills you will only make you stronger"
i have gone through my painful moments , my darkest nightmares but after a heavy rain comes a beautiful rainbow ; if you think i would fall down and die , you are wrong , i have just awaken and rise, i will be the brightest shooting star in the sky .

What has happened is already gone and done with , everything in the past will be kept as a memory in my heart , but what i am awaiting now is the future ahead of me :)
New SWAGGGGG baby

If you are still sulking in your own misery because the person you love left you for something else like freedom or anything then i feel sad for you =)
you only get to live once, think again how much time is left for you to waste on one person so just pick up your mess and move on ... They will never turn back and look at you kill your hope and put a smile on your face;The world won't stop spinning for you to fix things up it will only make you realize that you have been wasting too much time finding a needle in a haystack

my troubles flew away like helium balloons if i can so can you :)



Dedication to the people out there =)

True Facts About Girls

i bet you have seen this video call True Facts About Girls (Must Watch)
Its quite famous on Facebook in fact even after like 1 week people are still posting the video asking their friends to watch it!

well after u read this i would love to point out a few points!!

"Behind Every Successful Man Is A Woman ; Behind Every Unsuccessful Man Is Also A Woman"
If man are unsuccessful and a woman still stay with him this shows her loyalty towards him , this shows how much a woman love you and that they are willing to suffer with you when you are at your lowest.

"If i don't say i love you before i end the call she will start her melodrama"
Well u want to know why if you don't say i love you she would start her melodrama? Not because she is a drama queen , not because she is trying to seek attention but its because when you are with a person for long , they will be afraid to lose you one day , they have this fear of losing you thats why if you say i love you it will make them feel better.Even though people say Actions Speak Louder Than Words , but still sometimes even though the word don't mean a thing but at least it gives people a comfort and they don't have to think too much.

"Bollywood dramas is always about a girl and a guy they fall in love with each other and they live happily. But no one says what happen next "
Well do you want to know why in every love drama series you watch , its always happily ever after and no one says what happen next?
Its because Bollywood or whatever love drama series are like a fairy tales , people worte the script because in reality everything is the opposite.
Fairy tales exist when life is cruel , hopeless , sad , painful and sorrow.Thats the reason why fairy tales exist it is to let people get a taste of happiness and hope via it.
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Life is not a bed of roses ,
it might look easy but its hard.
the day i met you , i felt like we were going to last forever,
i shouldn't have believe it ,
not because i don't love you enough to believe it ,
but i think i won't fall for a men's words when they say forever.
nothing last forever when there is a start there will be an end.
you choose to be alone and let me go ,
i hope that one day when you wake up ,
you will realize that i really love you a lot ,
and remember all the things we did together ,
the long talks at the corridor , the short walks hand in hand , the warm hugs , the laughter we shared , the kind of joy we had together , the silly-ness that we both show when we are together without realizing it...

i am still hoping for a miracle to happen.How i wish i would have realize my mistakes earlier then maybe i could change everything


all the memories we had , it is priceless , all the laughter in our face i hope time stops and turn back again.

Play Pretend

we are all actors and actresses in life according to one of my friends theory.
well yeah its true! =) we are all fucking good actors and actresses we tend to hide our weaknesses hide our defects and we tend to be very deceitful.
But have you ever felt that when you are with 1 person of the opposite sex , only with them you feel like you don't have to put on a mask , hide your down sides , hide your weaknesses? Its like you let go of inner self that has been struggling like mad inside...
Its hard to find someone like that , you feel comfortable with them , feel the connection its almost as if you guys have a cable linking to each others.

i bet you have heard this for a billion , million , trillion times when someone break up , they tend to cry , after they cry after they get over the fact that they are all over , then they will start to party again start to have fun again.Thats life rite?
but what happens if you really happen to love that person so much , he meant so much to you , but he left you , you will probably think yeah you will get over it soon...
but how soon is soon? this is not like those normal breakups u know? not like HEY i'm gonna cry for 2 days maximum and i will hate you .But why this time , i don't hate you at all but i cried every morning when i wake up , weep when i think about you , weep when i hear our songs , weep when i go to all the places we went before..
what am i doing... moving backwards when you asked me to move forward

How can i let move forward when i know that it was really hard for us to be together , it was fate that we met each other , it was fate that brought us together , it was all the things you do and say . How can i let go of someone when i know that what we had was for real not just a silly game i play over and over again?

Well it took me a very long time to figure things out . For the past few days i was being a humpty dumpty when someone push me i would go to their way i was undecided and shit like that
but then now i have decided to give one last try.
even if it means being shot by a bullet and dying , at least i tried and i wouldn't regret.
i ain't desperate for a man , i'm just desperate for the reason that made our relationship fall flat on the ground , i'm just trying to get an answer that is satisfying and that is convincing.